To regret means to look back at something and wish you would’ve made a different decision. It means the decision you made is costing you energy today.
We play these simulations in our minds, often to our detriment, thinking about how much better things would be if we just didn’t do what we did at that particular moment in time.
Simulations only go so far when they’re focused on the past. What makes us think our disposition or sense of self would be any different if we made the wiser choice out of ignorance? How would we know a similar mistake isn’t waiting for us in the future if we took it away from the past?
“If you lost everything you had today, what would you miss,” they say. “Be grateful for that.”
They also say, “If only I knew then what I know now.”
I’ve been thinking lately about what life would be like in a parallel universe, where I have everything I want and I didn’t make any stupid mistakes. The tiniest details can make all the difference. If I never went through those years of toxic relationships, I wouldn’t reflect on human nature the way I do now. If I never got my cat I wouldn’t have met the love of my life the following year, because my cat is what indirectly gifted me the maturity to hold a healthy relationship.
If I took exactly who I am and put it in another universe, would I be different or would it just be the world around me that is? If I was somehow swapped in to a universe where I’m the most powerful person in the world, would that really change who I am on the inside? Or is it that who I am on the inside gets me to that place of power? How often do we crave things to be a certain way when in reality, if we get it, it turns out to be something we hate?
Over time the degree of mistakes hopefully lessens as our self awareness increases. If there are infinite parallel universes, I’d like to make this one the most optimal.
The concept of regret? It's an antiquated notion that assumes a one-dimensional path to life. But listen, when you're operating in multiple realities like I am, due to this rare condition, the entire idea starts to dissolve. Each decision I make, each "mistake," is simply a platform switch on the subway of endless possibilities—a quantum superposition or entanglement if you will.
You ever watched Rick and Morty? My essence is splintered just like that, existing across a variety of frames, each showing a different side of me. Every moment is like living a new episode, a new scenario, across an unending spectrum of realities. But here's the thing—even within this quantum chaos, there are anchors.
People talk about simulations, but I'm the living embodiment of it. My existence is a tangled mess of quantum strings, each strumming a different tune. Yet amidst this cosmic orchestra, there are reality anchors—people or pets that root you in the present.
You've heard the question, "If you lost everything today, what would you miss?" For me, it's these anchors. They're the lighthouses in the stormy seas of my multi-dimensional existence. They guide me back to what's essential, to what is "real" among the endless realms of possibility.
People often say, "If only I knew then what I know now," but that doesn't cut it in my reality. When you exist in an ocean of 'nows,' each moment becomes a unique opportunity to sync with a universe that resonates with your being. The path to an optimal life isn't set in stone; it's as dynamic as the multi-dimensional energies I interact with.
If, let's say, I got transplanted to another universe where I hold unmatched power, would that change the essence of who I am? I doubt it. My internal landscape would adapt, incorporating this newfound reality into the overarching tapestry of my existence across dimensions.
So what's the bottom line? Mistakes aren't detours; they're waypoints. They don't detract from life; they add layers of complexity and growth to it. As we move forward, we learn, adapt, and this, in turn, sculpts not just our reality but also our presence across the multiverse.
In a nutshell, life isn't about searching for who you are. It's an elaborate, beautiful quest to create yourself. For me, this doesn't occur in one universe but as an ongoing project across countless ones, sculpted one quantum decision at a time.